Have you ever had one of those days when you just wake up and wonder what it's all for? I've been having allot of those days lately. I mean on the surface things seem relatively alright. But as I look around and try to understand the world a bit. And the logic for why people do what they do. I come to realize that even in the simplest of lives there can sometimes be a great deal of confusion. I often used to pride myself on being able to figure things out relatively quickly. Now I often sit around and kinda wonder what it is I'm trying to figure out. I mean at 51, I'm past saving the world thoughts. And I no longer have any great illusions of fantastic wealth. The things I ponder mostly today are the things that really don't seem that important in the bigger scheme of things, relative to an individuals every day living. Yet the thoughts of what go's through my mind somehow seem very important just the same. You know a person can go their whole lives and never really understand what it's for. I've gone at least half mine and I'm still not sure. I mean I'm sure of my convictions, and what it is I believe in. Sometimes I'm just not sure of the point of it all. We all make such a big deal of the things we think are important. And cling desperately to the things we don't want to lose. As if the world will come to an end if we don't. When in truth, most people probably don't even care! So what are we fighting for anyway? And why? I like to think that at the end of the day, if I do the right thing I can lay my head down on my pillow at night and sleep in peace. And that in truth is a real blessing; the pillow that is. Because when I go to sleep at night I realize that there are many people around the world who don't have one! Yet somehow peace always seems to elude me. And not for any real good cause; or maybe for a great cause. I still have to sleep on it! I guess it depends on your perspective. And how you choose to view the world relative to your own existence. Maybe that's why I take so much enjoyment in my pillow. It helps cushion the blow of the reality of life. Which I've come to conclude is generally not fair. Yet we all have to live it. I'm a man of God. And I've become a man of prayer! Believe it or not one is not synonymous with the other. Hoping in prayer gives me even more peace than sleep! I just as soon while away my day as such. Evenings to for that matter. Just thinking on good things for the good of all. And leaning on God to do it! Because people often let you down. And allot of times we let ourselves down too. So the silver lining really is with God, for the love of Jesus! And that's where I put my hope, trust, and faith! It seems to me like the right place for it to be. Life has taught me that when man fails you, God won't. It's a sad reality, yet wonderful just the same. Imagine that!
Bless you all in the name of Jesus! Blessed Brother Sirvante.
Monday, September 30, 2013
Saturday, September 21, 2013
To seek understanding, you must first understand what it is you're seeking. We often times want to do what's best in life without really taking the time to understand who's lives' we're impacting with what we think is best. I have allot of trouble with people who go around with a self righteous perspective! Always condescending their views on others. And never really taking the time to understand the shortcomings of their own existence. Because they're too busy judging others! From my perspective if life were perfect, then we could all be born and just go straight to heaven. But I'm a man of faith, so that's just my view of the generalized world. I believe we're all sent here to learn something! And what that is I guess we all have to figure out on our own. It's like that old saying, ".....walk a mile in my shoes!" Sometimes I have trouble walking a mile in my own shoes. So I have great respect for people who manage to navigate themselves through troubling times in their own lives. Because that's really what the shoe theory is all about. And in fact I happen to be a man of many shoes; as opposed to a man of many hats. I like shoes! They challenge my everyday existence. I have to think about just what's right for the day before I put a pair on. Lest I get caught halfway down the road and stub my toe on a rock, all because I didn't put on the right pair of shoes. I like to have shoes for just about anything! And I think I do. Life has taught me that! Some people think I have too many shoes. But at this point in my life I think I have just enough to know which ones not to wear on any given day. And that's a great choice to have. Some people don't have choices; or the choices they have are slim to none! And that's a very sad position to be in. However we must all respect peoples choices in life. Even if we don't necessarily agree. People should always have a right to choose. And we should always respect that right. For our life isn't their life, and their life isn't ours. And somewhere in there I think you might find the beauty of God! And learn the temperament's of self. For we are all created as individuals. So who can truly say which walk is best in a protracted state. I've heard the greatest things in life have in truth been built on mountains of failure. So do we dare to fail in order to succeed? And do we dare to trust beyond the understanding of self? To care is not just a four letter word. And understanding, despite what people might think must first start in your heart, not in your mind! It gives clarity to the truth of ones disposition. And enlightens you to the compassion of the disposition of others. One never really knows what trails, and trials, and tribulations life will take us on. So we should all have reverence in the form of enlightened compassion for the miss steps of others. Because one never really knows whether they might one day end up in those same set of shoes. Even if it's not their own pair, they still might have to wear them. And that could be a painful thought, if your shoes are to big for your feet!
Bless you all in the name of Jesus! Blessed Brother Sirvante
Bless you all in the name of Jesus! Blessed Brother Sirvante